Just thoughts ..

I've been thinking about Crystal a lot today. We prayed for her in class last night, and I got a call from my cell that I did not know the number, but it wasn't her. I am thinking about chronolically doing a blog so that I can keep up with dates and such, I have most of it in emails, but.. somehow I am left to just 'write' about her since I don't know where she is and haven't heard from her since... the middle of June. So I know it has been the longest that she has ever gone without calling. Everytime I hear her song, I think of her. When I created the myspace for her, it was 'something I could do' in hopes that someone would see her and would call. It's still up http://www.myspace.com/helpfindcrystal ~ so now i'm thinking about either doing a separate blog to chronical everything, or blog on myspace. I'm sure there are other parents out there in the same position I am, but I don't know that we have any type of support group or anything. MOMAC ~ Moms of Missing Adult Children ~ or perhaps HYSOC ~ Have You Seen Our Children? She is that, and although it is such a blessing that God has entrusted us with the care of our precious Darious, and I would not trade this gift that I've been given, I still miss her. And it still hurts. and only God can help me through these feelings I get every once in a while. I am going tonight to meet with New Family, New Life, a ministry that helps women in sexually oriented businesses get out of their profession into a healthier one. It's a foundation here in Dallas, and I am so blessed that God brought me to their site when I was searching for a non-profit that I have to do an assignment on. Perhaps someday they'll be helping her.

Philippians 2:3: “Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves” (NAS).

I read a devotional this morning about a woman who, on her husband's day off, made an appointment to get her haircut. She didn't mention it to him, simply figured that since he would be home, and he enjoyed spending time with their two children, that he would not mind watching them when she went. The day before, her husband came home and announced that he had made a golf date with some buddies for the next day. She responded, saying " that's great! I hope you have a wonderful day!". She didn't even tell him, she simply cancelled the appointment. This is a perfect example of sowing into her marriage the fruit of exactly what is described in the above verse. I'm certain that in her marriage as she sows this way, she will continue to reap a loving relationship. I pray that I'll be able to stop at each circumstance I am faced with and be able to respond the way God has commanded me to! what a tall order, but definately one that God has promised through him that I can do !!